Airplanes

So, this one will be short, I promise. I just want to write about this amazing song by B.o.B. and Hayley Williams of Paramore. It's called Airplanes. The chorus is my favorite part. "Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now." I was walking tonight, listening to this song, and it makes me just want to stay outside and look up at the sky. I feel kind of stupid lately, kind of hopeless. As I already said, I can't function like I used to. I want to just forget it all. I've been trying so hard to be discovered, when in the end, all that really matters is that I enjoy doing what I do. I've been trying so hard, and it's starting to make me bored. I've decided that I'm just going to do what I do because I WANT TO. In the song, B.o.B. keeps saying that he was rapping for fun before he started doing it for money. He says that he wants to pretend it's like that again. So that's what I'm going to do... well, not rap, because obviously I suck at that. But you know what I mean.

Totally Unprepared

Okay, so I haven't been writing in this blog long enough to not write for a long time and suddenly show up again. I just really haven't been inspired lately. I've totally lost all my swag and I don't know why. I haven't been writing any of my stories lately, I haven't been drawing, not much singing, no self-lessons for piano, no cooking (excluding eggs. WOW), and I CAN'T EVEN TALK TO PEOPLE. I feel like a total idiot (which is also my status on facebook at the moment). I just can't figure out what's wrong with my brain. My creativity is GONE. No trace of it.

That's the exact reason why this blog is going to be complete crap.

So, I'm going write about my favorite song of all time. I found this about a year ago when I was listening to Jarrod Matthew (look him up on Youtube) with my friend. The song is by The Spill Canvas, who, at the moment, I'm quite into at the moment.

>>>> http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/spillcanvas/thetide.html <<< Lyrics. I decided to save some space and just give you guys the link. :)

The Tide is a very sad but amazing song about three siblings growing up on the beach with their parents. In the beginning of the song, everything seems like it's so nice and perfect for them, but as the song goes on, it shows how disfunctional the falling apart family is. The mother and father are constantly fighting, thus giving the children the wrong view of love. The father eventually leaves and the mother is left heartbroken. She tells her son about how Heaven and love are lies, and that he should just live his life the way he wants to and live for all the good moments.

When Mom finally just gives up at trying to fix things with Dad, she just doesn't care anymore, and she continues to tell her children about the lies of heaven and love. Soon enough, she realizes her kids are gone, and she can't find them anywhere. And as a matter of fact, I'm still not sure where they went. The song says that the tide swept them into the ocean. But does that mean the literal tide from the ocean? Or the tide of life? Not positive. You guys tell me.
Anyways, this song leaves me breathless everytime I listen to it. It gives me so much emotion. It's been tugging at my heart to write about it for so long; I just never got to it. And I had absolutely NO idea what to say.

So, yeah... I'm just gonna stop now, thank you very much. The music video is below.

When I Look at You

I'm really not a big fan of Miley Cyrus, though I used to be when I was around twelve, but recently, I heard her song, "When I Look at You", and now I'm constantly listening to it. I was going to wait to write this blog on Tuesday, but I can't wait.





The lyrics go as follows:





Everybody needs inspiration

Everybody needs a song

A beautiful melody

When the night's so long




Cause there is no guarentee

That this life is easy




Yeah, when my world is falling apart

When there's no light to break up the dark

That's when I

I, I look at you




When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home anymore

That's when I

I, I look at you




When I look at you I see forgiveness

I see the truth

You love me for who I am

Like the stars hold the moon

Right there where they belong

And I know I'm not alone

Yeah, when my world is falling apart

When there's no light to break up the dark

That's when I

I, I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home anymore

That's when I

I, I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me

Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me

All I need

Every breath that I breathe

Don't you know you're beautiful

Yeah, yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home anymore

That's when I

I, I look at you

I look at you

Yeah, yeah

Oh, oh

You appear just like a dream to me

And there we have it. At this very moment, I'm listening to this song. The words really hit home for me. Not only does it have a "love story" kind of meaning, but it reminds me of my relationship with God. When I feel that my life is falling apart and I'm alone, all I have to do is look to God and I know He'll stay with me. I know that He'll protect in any situation, and I know that He'll take me as I am, holding me in the perfect place. God appears just like a dream to me. When I was little, during a bad thunder storm, I was afraid, and my mom was telling me that I can be safe if I trust God with my life. So when the waves are flooding my shore and I'm far from home, I look to Him.

I'm the kind of teenaged girl who obsesses over her weight. I used to be afraid of any food that wasn't grown out of the ground or had come off of a tree. I felt so insecure with my body. I knew the number of calories in everything I ate. I would sometimes even cry myself to sleep feeling that I wasn't good enough. (And for those of you people who know me, don't worry, I'm done with all that kind of stuff.) This is the first time I've told anyone this, and I guess it's no longer a secret. But when I felt that I couldn't take it anymore, and that my world was so messed up, I looked to God, and he let me know that I'm fine the way I am. So, whenever I feel insecure or upset or scared, I go to God. He helps me through anything and everything.

I don't know if Miley Cyrus neccessarily meant what I'm saying in her song, but I know she's a Christain, so maybe. I'm just telling you all what I think this song means, And what it means to me.

Music & Me

I've always been the kind of person who'd start a zillion blogs, then never keep them going. That's probably because I based them off of things that don't really matter, like anime characters (which I find hilarious looking back on) and celebrities. I would make the blogs, then just leave them be for others to see and think that I'm probably not a very ambitious person if I'm writing blogs about a cartoon character.

This time, I've decided to write about my passion. Music.

I'm a young writer, though I have no published creations yet, and music inspires me. It helps me come up with plots, titles, scenarios, et cetera. Every time I hear a song, I write a story along with it in my head, kind of like a music video. When I get writer's block, I crank up the tunes and that keeps me going. I even make playlists for each story I write (and I'm sure most other writers do that too).

Not only does music inspire me, it practically controls me. If a song is telling me to go out and do a bunch of bad stuff, that will probably influence me to, well, do bad stuff. Now, I'm not saying this is true for everyone, but for many people, the effect that music has on our minds can be tremendous. That's why I'm writing this blog right now, this very moment. I'm going to analyze the music I listen to and share the results with you. I know, I know, this probably sounds rather boring, but what's there to lose? A little it of time from my life? Big deal. I feel like this is something I need to do for some odd reason, so, I'm going to do it. Hopefully a few people will join me.